you fucking annoy me. everytime i blog it's about you. i hate relationships. they're annoying. i hate forgive and forget. or opening-up. how about i just not feel anymore, like i said before. that would be so much easier. you fucking irritate me with the affect you have on me. i don't want to be depending on you to be there to text me or call me. i don't want to fucking have those restless nights staying up, staring at my phone. i don't like that. i'm not that kind of person. i'm independent. i want to keep myself busy, like you do all the time. fucking feeling like this stupid shitty fucking person. i almost, almost had the chance to fucking run from this but i couldn't. you're so god damn addicting.
i hate you. fucking busy all the time. i hate you cause you at least have distractions. i have nothing. i'm stuck at home wallowing in my misery with my pathetic self staring at my phone. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. & i was afraid of hurting you? shittttttttttttttttt, stop hurting me. stop leaving me crying most nights. fucking stop with your god damn affect already. i can't deal with it! i can't deal with all these emotions, teen angst, anger, piled into one. it's fucking annoying. i don't want to deal with this anymore. shittttttttttttttttttt, just fucking... stop hurting me already & i won't keep my guard up anymore. if it was that simple. you've fucking taken me. taken my heart.
more like stolen. I didn't expect it. if i expected it maybe i'd be like, "Oh! he's so cute. I love him soo much." bullshit. no, i'm not like that. i demand you to give it back this instant and stop stepping on it. geezus.
i hate boys.
i hate relationships.
i hate this thing called "love".
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