confession # 102934855

of things i miss.

When I was a little kid, we used to go everywhere. Road trips every weekend, with my family. & if we didn't go out, I remember we'd used to sit on our lawn - me and my cousins. & we'd eat popsicles. Oh, and this one time. We had this huge waterfight and the parents kept getting mad at us. & Back in 05? I'm not sure, but i'm pretty sure it was the summer of my 6th grade year. We used to play soccer at the park every day. But the parents had to work, so we stayed at my cousin, Tori's house all day. & we'd get dropped off in the morning. Like 7 A.M. So during the afternoon while we were watching music videos we'd all fall asleep. & the room with the TV only had two couches. & there were 8 of us. So we'd nap on the floor 'cause it was carpet. & it was just the most comforting thing in the world. And I miss in 8th grade this kid and me had this thing going on. & it was just. I don't even know. something. He used to make fun of me all the time. & i remember that I held his hand once to prove to my friend that people who hold hands don't have to be going out. & he grabbed my hand again. & ha, that was like. Aw moment. Oh, i miss last year at Union Catholic where I'd be hyper with my honors crew. & even though I was really quiet I made friends. 'Cause people weren't really that closed off as they are in UHS. & running through the halls with my friends, doing all this fun stuff. & I miss eating those candy necklaces. Aha, they weren't like the greatest candy on earth but it reminded me of when i was a kid and those summer days.

of things aspirations & things i wish i'd get.

a letter. a postcard. post it notes all over the house. jewelry from a thrift store. a polaroid. those photo booth pictures. a mini trophy from chuckee cheese. staying on a train in new york stopping anywhere. one way tickets. concert tickets. to go to a concert. free shows. have an adventure. things that remind people of me. lillies. completely white lillies. learn how to rollerblade. make a movie. scrapbook. collages<3. heart and soul. along with mixtapes. roller blading in the parkinglot on one of these summer nights. dancing in the rain.

of things i'd like to tell you.

all of this.