i'm so god damn indecisive, it irritates me so. these fucking mood swings are getting to me. i'm up, i'm down. what the fuck is life throwing at me. i'm tired of it. i'm tired of dodging all this senseless shit. avoiding all these confrontations. i'm a fuck up. not even lying, or saying it just to say it. i'm a fuck up. i contradict myself. i care, but i don't. i dream, but i'm a realist. i'm quiet, but i want to meet new people. what is wrong with me? honestly, all this teen angst just bugs me. i'm tired. i'm tired of staring at my phone. i'm tired of looking at pictures like i could change something. i'm tired of feeling so god damn empty. i'm selfish. all i want is more, more, and more. i've got my mom, my sister, my friends, my "boyfriend". & still, i feel as though there's something missing. why?
i don't know. i don't know anymore.
so i'm running. i'm running for now. i fucking give up. i'll still wake up everyday, still act the same, but i'll be waiting. waiting for that missing part to show up.
just. another. runaway.
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