Hi, I'm just waiting for a sign.

It's ridiculous, I know to search for a sign. Signs come to you when you're not searching for them. That is why my ipod, which only now has 15 songs, can not give me the sign i need. Or the fact that I randomly chose my lucky number and went to that page on my tumblr and it still gave me no sign. It's ridiculous to seek out signs like this but I am really in desperate need of one. Which is why I'm writing in my blogspot after how many days, months, maybe a year. Because I'm really really confused on what to do. And I really really wish I wasn't ending 2010 with a stupid mistake. And I have faith, I do I do. I really do have faith, God. I have faith that You'll make sure that everything is alright. The first time this happened, you made sure nothing happened. Because I prayed to you. And all the times after that, You made sure it didn't happen. And I functioned on nothing but prayer. But he's getting the plan B pill because he's insecure. And I think it won't hurt. But I really do have faith God. I really do pray that You'll help me through this because I made a stupid mistake. Like you helped me through the rollercoaster. And how you actually caught me in Your arms. If I come out of this completely normal, and things are fine - It's because You take care of me. You save me, God. Like how You helped me find myself. And whatever happens, happens. And I really hope You'll take care of me God. I always believe that You will always catch me in Your arms. I just wanted to write this because I needed a sign, but now I realize that things will be fine. I really did want to thank you God. For taking care of me so much. For taking of this reckless human being You call one of Your children. Please, I just ask that everything be fine so that Majano isn't hurt and my Mom and Abby aren't disappointed. Especially that I don't hurt them from my stupid mistakes.

Sincerely,

The girl who sat in gate 3, now sitting on a wooden chair in front of her computer.